Don't speak liar

"dont speak liar" a song by we the kings
something i can relate to

im kinda emo tday
first i was okay then i was emo then i was okay again
but i ended up writing a blog on how emo i currently am

im not the emo type actually, but when i do get emo..
well lets say its not pretty
and when im done being emo i despise myself for acting that way
its pretty rare for me to cry cause i dont want to feel weak
let alone look weak

but im not the emotionless type okay
i have feelings too
sometimes i think noone knows that unless theyve seen me cry

this is what happened
and im only going to talk about this here
cause its humiliating and im trying to save my pride
whats left of it that is

so u guys know abt the prank call from nifu ryte?
i know the prankster didnt really mean what he said and i know its a prank
cause obviously nifu doesnt love me lol
but i kinda hoped nifu was the one talking cause god hes hott

but i figured out who the prankster was and nifu had nothing at all to do with it
he doesnt evn know about it
nothing! ZIPPO

so yeah i knew that might happen but i didnt expect to be lied to about it
zaki was the one who called
he used his cousins phone
and i knew this when he texted me using his cousins phone
and i saved that number

so i got pissed off
cause when the rocks and i tried to figure out who did it
we were like "xkn laa zaki kot"
so yeah it was unexpected
if he reads this i bet he'll be damn proud
so whatever

I HOPE UR HAPPY MR.PRANKSTER OF THE YEAR!
cause i bloody am not

not only did u fucking played me,u fucking lied to me too
and about nifu!
of all the things u coulda said u just haaaad to pretend u were him hm?!
i should be more secretive cause nowadays u cant even trust ur own friends

but i should thank u for making me realize that

just because im not as emo as put or whoevr u cn play with my fucking feelings?!
oh wait maybe u think i have no feelings at all

sometimes when im mad or serious
people will just laugh
cause im always sarcastic and stuff
so they dont even bother about my feelings