Looking fear right in the eyes *grr?*

I guess I should explain the title first;
Tomorrow ze family and I are going to the polo club (haven't been there in ages yo)
and Imma face. my. fear.
My dad teached Amir how to ride the other day and I got all jealous (typical me really)
I havent ridden in ages so I really miss it
BUT I did almost fall off
After the day I almost fell, horse riding was never the same

Wow I sound really dramatic XD

But yeaaaaah I wanna try riding again to see if I can suddenly be all trauma-less?
After thinking all about it I started to day dream about getting my own horse as a sweet sixteen gift XD
HAHA YEAH RIGHT, like that's ever gonna happen
It would be really cool though : O

And now I wanna look at my 2010 resolutions
The ones I failed at after just one month XD
Tadaa:

1- Be less emotional; yeaaaaah that really isnt working out since I got all pissed at Hariz yesterday and ignored him all day today

2- Stop swearing so much; LMAO LIKE THIS COULD EVER HAPPEN

3- STOP CRUSHING ON PEOPLE WHO WILL NEVER EVER, EVER, LIKE ME BACK; cant help myself?

Im still working on resolution numero uno though which is "try to exercise everyday''
Maybe Ill cut everyday and make it just ..I dont know

Hm yeah all I know is that I feel like talking about boys

1- saw pondok just now, he saw me too and was grinning and saying some stuff to his friends I guess

2- hot bod guy has side burns, guh-ross

3- HEEEEEEE after a whole year of stalking asyraf, he finally notices me <3 and my crazy menyibuk friends =.='' (YEAH IM TALKIN BOUT U AISYA) lol

4- haziq says Im hebat o.O? cool

5- izzat azwa isnt as annoying in real life, maybe he's afraid of me XD

6- I like cikgu varathan! ( I dont mean I have a crush on him though =.= )

7- hariz is really creepy when he does this --> O.O he should stick to being sepet

Okay Im done now, gracias for reading this load of shizz <3

I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW

..THE RAIN IS GOOONE
lol I cant stop singing that!

Yesterday (Saturday) I finally got my contact lenses!
I thought I had to wait a whole week but YAY I didnt have to

So yeah, the whole family went to KLCC
Deric, the optometrist told me my eye sight didnt get any worse so that was a HUUUUGE relief
and almost, kind of, very shocking o.o
My spectacle powers are 400 and 375 ..told u guys I am blind

Deric, the optometrist, was probably the nicest chinese guy I have EVER met
besides Uncle Danny of course
who isnt my Uncle fyi
cause well, hes chinese, duh?
hes just a neighbour who's friends with my dad
and his wife taught me how to play the swings
aww? XD

and the time I finally got Astro, I played badminton with him
yeaaah, good times, good times

ANYWAAAYS (I should stop being so nostalgic), Deric taught me how to put the contacts on
WHICH WAS VERY VERY FRUSTRATING
my eye got all watery and I thought I was gonna end up blind
but I got it! eventually
and Deric said those were tears of joy

..then I had the other eye
my left eye was ever watery-er? and I started sniffing
and Deric thought I was crying =.=''
but he was so sweet lol and was like, 'aww dont cry'
LOL

wee then I got all over-excited because I could finally see things clearly
and I hugged my car because I could see it (not that I couldnt before)
and I stared at a couple of cute guys and they stared back
WEE LIFE COULDNT GET ANY BETTER
okay maybe it could, but whatever

I feel nothing

Noooo, I dont mean Im emotionless
All Im sayin is that I dont feel any difference, at all
So far, 2009 and 2010 are the same
Maybe cause Im the type that doesnt really make resolutions, or watch the new year count down, or get all excited over the fireworks display

The new years just made me feel older
Not in a good way, like I feel any more matured like that, no
Im the same, everythings the same
I dont have any new friends ..yet?
I havent lost any friends ..yet x.x

Actually, I HATE NEW YEARS
This is the 2nd year in a row that Ive felt all bummed about a new year
I hate change
I like things the way they are
I just got the hang of 2009 and now I have to start all over
Which sucks, alot

Okay I sound so depressed =.= Ill stop now
I feel like making resolutions
Which is very rare for me
I usually just go with the flow ..ish lol

Soooo here goes?

1- Try to exercise everyday
2- Increase my vocabulary (so I can be all show offy lol)
3- Be less emotional XD
4- Stop swearing so much; If u guys paid any attention, I have been saying lame stuff like dang, shiz, watafish, etc for quite some time now
5- STOP CRUSHING ON PEOPLE WHO WILL NEVER EVER, EVER, LIKE ME BACK

Okay thats about it really

Oh wait one more
6- Get better grades so the pure science people can eat my friggin dust! HAHA XD

Sooo yeah, thats it
Ill try my best to adapt to the changes coming my way

OHH WAIT ANOTHER ONE
7- Do better at night photography and portraiture, maybe

I think number 7 is the most important to me
I felt so bad when I was in Singapore and I didnt get a good snap of the city at night
HOW SAD