anorexic?

god do i seriously look lyk an anorexic? cmooon i have chubby cheeks and i eat! i friggin eat alot of junk food anorexics wont even touch tht stuff i jst have thin parents i guess my dad ws underweight so he ate alot to gain more weight and my mum is normal if she lost one kg she'd be underweight too and well im underweight too if i want to be normal i have to gain 10 kgs i dnt want to gain weight! or lose weight! honestly im nt insecure abt my weight everyone around me is! the other day my dentist asked me if i lost weight or smtg she said i looked alot skinnier but i didnt lose any weight i cnt lose any weight or gain any either god i sound weird

OMG

omg i nvr knew tht my future is already set up
god i dnt evn knw wht im going to be when i grow up
but my dad knws wht im going to be
..an accountant

he said tht when i finish studying in a U
i'll directly go to work at his company or companies?!
or mybe own them?! since the age difference between me and my brother is lyk 4 years
so i'll own all of em?! then when hes ready to work i'll give one of em to him?
omg my life is already ready fr me

but i am so nt

god
so lyk my dad told me he hs 5 companies
i so didnt knw tht
and he says tht he'll give one of us each
but thr are only 4 of us
and y is he so sure tht all of us would wnt to become accountants?

ths is so scary
i dnt evn knw if i wnt to be a boss
lyk i wont have any experience
then bam! im the boss

tht does sound cool aye
but its soo nt

wht if i screw up then bam! the company goes hay wire
and it'll be my fault

my dads company
the one he built up himself frm ntg! na da!!
and i dnt wnt to risk killing it
sheesh pressure much

typo

uh my recent blog had some typos so i hope ppl understand tht they are jst typos i knw hw to spell kay im too lazy to "edit post" so im jst posting a new blog :D and i have no clue on wht to say hmmmmmmm, yep still no clue. oh yeah hannah montana's 3D thing is on tonight and i havent got the 3D glasses yet since my brother is sick and i have a head ache :/ oh you knw wht?! yesterday ws soooo cool i saw haniffu playing basketball in hawaiian shorts AGAIN they were striking light green with green flowers gaah i wonder if hes addicted to em i think im suddenly addicted to bags i nvr went out anywhere with a bag but nw i do im nt lyk the girls who are trying to be matured puh-leees im 14 not 24 i dnt wear those kepit-under-ur-armpits bag lyk i once saw a girl wearing one of those bags she had not-so-high high heels with pointy toes and she looked lyk her mum! cant she lyk wait a few years to grow up? god why does she want to look lyk someones mother? if they were cute then fine wear em but no THEY WERE NOT so she ended up looking lyk a mak cik ps:girl if ur reading this get some fashion sense pss:i knw.i sound bitchy

spell check

is it i'll be damned or i'll be damn i think its damned ..i think anyways well i'll be damn(ed)? megat has a myspace?! i so didnt knw tht and i still dunno wht juno is abt hmm props to ami fr beating everyone at dance revolution so ive read i didnt play with em the other day i ws too lazy/sleepy and nw i have a friggin head ache the good news is tht i have the highest english marks wee nt tht im showing of or anything lyk cmon its my blog i'll wht i wanna say eventhough it ws the heighest i didnt actually improve much ok i didnt improve at all last time i got 93 and nw its a fckn 91 the only marks tht improved were fr geography and it lyk only increased fr abt 4 points i think jeez whr is everyone the only ppl tht are online are the ppl tht i dnt wnt to talk to

uhh

parents are sooooo annoying
ugh

y wont they lyk friggin leave me alone
i need some friggin space
x.x

adiks are twice as annoying
but u get to scold them ^^
u cnt scold ur parents no matter hw WRONG they are
life is so unfair

"atchoom"

lappy :)

yay! it has been awhile since i used my own laptop

my dad doesnt rlly let anyone touch it cause thr are alot of his precious sooongs

pfft i have bloody songs too in tht bloody pc tht isnt bloody working!

u dnt see me crying abt it

jeez

evn dads cn be such babies lol



im thinking of buying a new phone

since my old phone..died

yes DIED only the number works nw

hw the fck am i going to msg ppl with jst a sim card?!

so i havent sms anyone in ..5 months i think

5 loooong months

eventhough i proved myself tht i cn live without one

i still wnt one :D

but idk which one.

koko ws fun since i didnt attend bm

cause i had b.ball

the dudes didnt come

so yeah it ws hottie-less

they all had tution or smtg

everyone ws lyk whr is ali blablabla

so thr whr jst a few guys,sufie & her sister,me,some other f5 gals AND f1 kids

yeah! they were gedik

god one of em ws soo taking it seriously

but she sucked xD

she asked wtf is a board

fr gods sake its the board near the hoop wht else is thr?!

and she ws lyk "kakak ktorang xtau apa-apa so kakak kene ajar dari head to toe"

the head to toe part made me wnt to barf

its jst a game fr gods sake



me & sufie realized tht fikri's suare is soo unhot

hw cn sarah alya lyk him? eww

and one of the kakaks were lyk saying i & sufie were the terer ones?

hha yeah ryte

well atleast we didnt suck.ofcourse ^^



god ths guy hs hot hair

but hes nt hot

jst his hair lol

rugi much :/



p/s:yay sufie hs braces nw!
gosh wht a trend XD

dear bloggie,

oh bloggie i hope this post will make it through this time

do u know how pissed i am at u intrnt ppl

jeez i cnt even reply a bloody cmnt or post a blog!

wht do u wnt me to do tom?! sms ppl

hello i dnt have a phone anymore

and oh blog ppl wht do u wnt me to do hm?!

write a friggin diari? puh-leees



ok so this holiday i wont be going anywhere

and my friends are living by shakespears poem

u knw LIFE'S BRIEF CANDLE

based upon macbeth's wife who died yadda yadda

( see i read poems too ;D )

well i seriously thought noone would take tht poem seriously

but i thought wrong

my friends arent really enjoying theyre holidays

well not all of em

they know who they are

rin is one of the lucky ones who get to go somewhere!

and thx to u we cnt do our svk folio

seriously thx, im not perli-ing :D

anyways shakeys poem is abt hw life is meaningless

fr the ones who are having a rough week tht would make a hell lot of sense

but when ur all calm its total bullshit

like who says life is meaningless

trust me ive been through that phase so dnt say i knw nothing

u wanna be a loner,u dnt wnt to be happy since u dnt get the point

blablabla its all the same and everyone goes through that

its not the end of the world and even if it is make the best of it



hard to believe all of this is coming from me

but hey i cn be as deep as iman too ;D

..damn i forgot wht i ws gonna type next

ugh i ws on a roll here



life aint fun when everything revolves on one thing tht stinks

noone has a perfect life

especially me

idk why ppl think i have a perfect life

trust me behind the yellow walls of my house theres drama

jst because im always happy at school doesnt mean im always jolly

i have issues too i cry too

and yeah i knw i dnt have the i-cry-myself-to-sleep face

but its not lyk it nvr happened before

hmm i guess the whole point of me writing ths blog is because i dnt wnt my friends to fight

and i dnt wnt puteri to feel down

i hope she wont mind me writing her name ..its not lyk i have any other frnds on blogspot meheh

i knw hw it feels when ppl say they knw hw u feel when obviously they dont

i knw wht its lyk to be alone and have noone to talk to

but i did get over all of tht

and trust me its jst an emotional game

its real but it doesnt mean ur life will always suck

things come and go and other things jst remain the same

and trust me u dnt wnt ur life be miserable forever

i blame everything on shakeys