Looking fear right in the eyes *grr?*

I guess I should explain the title first;
Tomorrow ze family and I are going to the polo club (haven't been there in ages yo)
and Imma face. my. fear.
My dad teached Amir how to ride the other day and I got all jealous (typical me really)
I havent ridden in ages so I really miss it
BUT I did almost fall off
After the day I almost fell, horse riding was never the same

Wow I sound really dramatic XD

But yeaaaaah I wanna try riding again to see if I can suddenly be all trauma-less?
After thinking all about it I started to day dream about getting my own horse as a sweet sixteen gift XD
HAHA YEAH RIGHT, like that's ever gonna happen
It would be really cool though : O

And now I wanna look at my 2010 resolutions
The ones I failed at after just one month XD
Tadaa:

1- Be less emotional; yeaaaaah that really isnt working out since I got all pissed at Hariz yesterday and ignored him all day today

2- Stop swearing so much; LMAO LIKE THIS COULD EVER HAPPEN

3- STOP CRUSHING ON PEOPLE WHO WILL NEVER EVER, EVER, LIKE ME BACK; cant help myself?

Im still working on resolution numero uno though which is "try to exercise everyday''
Maybe Ill cut everyday and make it just ..I dont know

Hm yeah all I know is that I feel like talking about boys

1- saw pondok just now, he saw me too and was grinning and saying some stuff to his friends I guess

2- hot bod guy has side burns, guh-ross

3- HEEEEEEE after a whole year of stalking asyraf, he finally notices me <3 and my crazy menyibuk friends =.='' (YEAH IM TALKIN BOUT U AISYA) lol

4- haziq says Im hebat o.O? cool

5- izzat azwa isnt as annoying in real life, maybe he's afraid of me XD

6- I like cikgu varathan! ( I dont mean I have a crush on him though =.= )

7- hariz is really creepy when he does this --> O.O he should stick to being sepet

Okay Im done now, gracias for reading this load of shizz <3